Sunday, April 14, 2019

Time is a Construct

It’s been six months since I updated this space. That surprises me; if you’d asked me, I would have said it hadn’t been more than two months, three tops.

As I type this, Sade’s “Your Love is King” is piping through the iPhone. Which is a funny coincidence. Though the song came out in 1984, Sade, for me, is tied to a period in the late 90s/early 2000s that was pretty significant, shaping me, for better or worse. And here we are, in 2019 and yet, there are moments when I think “wasn’t that just yesterday?” Vague, I know, but it’s late, I need to be getting ready for bed and I don’t know that I have it in me at 9 on a Sunday night to be unpacking old memories and wondering if the choices I’ve made in the past 20 years have been right ones.

So, let’s see, since October, I went to El Salvador in December for what may be my last trip home for a while, I’ve moved in to a new apartment and I’ve been at the job for two years. Those are the biggies. Being new-ish on the job is part of the reason why the trips to El Salvador have to be on hold for a while. I have to save up the vacation leave for when the adoption is finalized otherwise taking leave to be home with the baby is going to be much shorter than I’d like. Plus, the trip can be expensive and as I’m repeatedly told (as if I didn’t know) babies are expensive. So one is required to be a grown up. Which is probably a good thing to practice given that I’m wanting to be responsible for another human being.

Adoption-wise, the home study was updated back in November so I’m going in to year two. The recent move (to a cheaper apartment) also required a mini-update but beyond that, I’m still in wait mode. When I went to the information session in 2017, they said the process could be anywhere from 12 to 24 months. I decided to believe it would be 24 months to stave off the impatience a bit. So far that’s worked and it’s also given me some time to save up money. If I’m still waiting this time next year though, I don’t know. I’ll be 47. That seems, well, not 27. I have feelings about that too but just like the others mentioned above, much too much to unpack right now.

When you don’t write often, finding an ending that isn’t another promise to write more is hard so for now, this is enough.

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Thursday, April 25, 2019

What Had Happened Was - Reading Edition

Reading meme from Tumblr

There’s a reason memes are so popular (among the olds I mean. Apparently the young people are over them.) - they can ring so true. When I saw the one in the image above, I burst out laughing and had to immediately post it to Facebook because it so perfectly captured where my reading life is right now. I’ve written before about my extensive (though I still content that a mere 700 or so books isn’t a very big number of books) collection and how comforting it is to be surrounded by all those unread books, all the potential of diving in to different lives and worlds.

That said, at the rate I’ve been reading for the last, oh, probably decade now, you wouldn’t know that I enjoy reading much. I don’t think I’ve met my Goodreads reading challenge in several years. I came sort of close last year, reading 21 of the 26 books I pledged to read. I decided this would be the year that that changes and pledged to read 30 books in 2019.

So far, I’ve being doing pretty good, with 17 books already read. But things have slowed down a bit in the last month so unless I pick the pace back up I may not make it. What I’ve rediscovered is that carving out reading time isn’t so hard but I am still easily distracted by the TV or phone. I’m also having to be careful about the books I choose - right now my reading choices are still more fluff than substance. I’d like to say that the brain is ready for learning! For serious, thought provoking content! But like any muscle, it’s a bit out of practice so as much as I may want to dive full in to Sapiens or All Quiet on the Western Front or What Social Classes Owe to Each Other (all of which I have on the Kindle app on the iPhone), those are proving to be a bit too dense. But I still have hope. I mean, if moving hundreds of books across the country twice and from apartment to apartment several times isn’t about hope then what is it? Besides proof that I’m a very foolish person, I mean.

Here are the books I’ve read so far:
The Naked Sun (Robot, #2), Asimov
The Caves of Steel (Robot, #1), Asimov
Shrill: Notes from a Loud Woman, West
Heidi, Spyri
Bad Blood (Virgil Flowers, #4), Sanford
When Never Comes, Davis
Dark of the Moon (Virgil Flowers, #1), Sanford
This is the New Happy, Frankel
Golden Prey, (Lucas Davenport, #27), Sanford
The Jungle Book, Kipling
Halsey Street, Coster
Ninth and Nowhere, Deaver
Blood for Blood (Ziba MacKenzie, #1), Selman
Deadlock (V.I. Warshawski, #2), Paretsky
The Great Passage, Miura
Indemnity Only, Paretsky
The Tenth Island: Finding Joy, Beauty, and Unexpected Love in the Azores, Marcum

So far, my favorite would have to be The Great Passage. I can definitely see me reading that more than once. If you’re looking for a book to read, I would definitely recommend it.